is home really where the heart is??

So I've been in California for three days now and its exactly like i thought it would be. i dont know what is is about this place, maybe i let all the bad memories affect how i feel about it, i probably shouldn't do that but i do. I really miss Orlando, i feel like i left my life back there, all my friends all my planned nights out, just having something to do. I'm so bored here, i feel super restless, i dont really have anything here i mean i have my family but i have no friends, no job, no life. I think i have watched more TV in the last 3 days than i have in the last six months. but the boredom has benefited me in some ways, i get so bored that i try new things with my make up, hair and wardrobe so i have been looking pretty fierce while sitting home watching TV. i guess I'm at a crossroads in my life right now, i know my parents will support me and do all they can but i still feel bad, like having them rent me an apartment in o town till i get on my feet, like yeah my family isn't really hurting but i still feel like a burden. As much as i miss Orlando and wanna go back i think i would feel worse about being a burden on the family. I dont know, i feel that my feelings are i guess kind of unneeded but i cant really help how i feel. Its just California doesn't really feel like my home anymore, like i cant stress enough that i have nothing here and yeah i guess you can tell me to stop complaining and make something here but its had to create a new life here when i have such a great one back in Orlando. i feel like I'm gonna need some time to think about things and decide what i want to do, i just hope i make the right decision a decision where I'm happy.